The Rewards and Costs of Being a Witch

What Do I Think Becoming a Witch Will Do For Me?

I think that becoming a witch will help my find the spiritual roots that I lack, and that no other spiritual path has been able to offer me. I think that it will help me heal years of abuse inflicted both by those outside of my skin, and those within it.

I think that becoming a witch will empower me to take my rightful place as a co-creator of the universe. I think that becoming a witch will guide me back to a wonder that was lost in my youth. Probably the same day that I realized that Santa, the Easter Bunny, the Tooth Fairy, and probably the American Dream were all myths. I think that by pursuing the craft I will discover my inner child again. Heck I've already done that and we are really starting to get along (her name is Kristen btw for those of you who didn't catch that post.)

Mostly I think that becoming a witch will do what all good religion does for its followers. It will help me find my place in the universe, capture my bliss and find faith in the world again.

What Do I Think That Becoming a Witch Will Cost Me?

I think that I will set myself even further apart from mainstream society which is a loss for me. I like to pretend that I think that I'm above "society's stupidity", but in truth there is a very real part of me that fears that if I don't ever gain society's approval I will never quite get past the feeling of being an outcast, ostracized because there is something fundamentally wrong with me.

This will sound strange, but I know that I will never have the same sense of community that I had when I was a member of a local Christian church as a kid. I mean there's obviously a pagan community to be found just about anywhere, but because we all believe different things, because there is no actual absolute way or truth there isn't the connection that comes from knowing that you are around those who are on exactly the same page that you are. I know that I will always miss that.

I know that I will be forfeiting the power that comes from being part of a mainstream religion, and the sense of connection with my community at holidays. I know that I will face persecutions that I wouldn't have to face if I were to choose a more mainstream religion. I never once had any one threaten to put me in the hospital because I was Christen, nor did I ever have any of my friends find out about my Christen faith and decide we couldn't be friends any longer.

I know that all of these things are tolls to be paid along this road, I know that there are probably others I have yet to consider. I also know that those things most worthy of fighting for are never easy. Those things that can transform life into something more come with a price. Easy is free but it never quite pays off the same way. So I accept these losses as the fee for what dreams may come.